Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Anxiously waiting

I have finally gotten into the Abnormal Psychology class that I needed and I have my CHEM 106 class this summer. The OT program is currently taking applications for Jan. 2013 cohort. I really want to apply because current students of the OT program told me I should apply anyways because they are allowing people to get into the program without completing the 9 pre-requisite class. I sent an to the the Dean of the OT school and she told me that I should wait until Oct. when they start accepting applications for Aug. 2013 cohort. HHHHHHHH..... so I am anxiously awaiting to apply in Oct.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Back to school work I go.

With being an adult learning, my university requires us to do a "pre-assignment" that is due on the first day of class. It seems like I do not get a spring break at all because I have to do my work that is due on the first day of class. Today the baby had her 4 month shots, so she is extremely fussy. Her growth has slowed down, so the pediatrician advised that should I start the baby on solid foods once a day. I gave her a teaspoon of oatmeal and neosure (neosure instead of breast milk because it has more calories which she needs). She liked it at first, and then she fought a little and then finished the rest of her meal. I nursed her to finish every this off. She was still supper fussy. I could not put her down for anything. I had to get on to doing my school work, so when she went to sleep I put her down and did my math. She woke up 3 times in the process. She just wants to lay on my chest for comfort. Then I went to clean the kitchen and get dinner ready, she cried the whole time because she wanted me to hold her. That was about 45 minutes of crying. So then I picked her up when I was done to try to get her back to sleep so that I could start on my Abnormal Psychology class....... and do I need to say she woke up and demanded her mommy’s love. I have 3 chapters to read and I cannot read with the tears and yelling. So I put her back on my chest and start reading. She was fine, but when it came to me wanting to take notes on what I was reading... baby girl said I was doing too much moving and the fussiness started again. Soooooo...... I always have tomorrow to do some work I guess.  But for now I will love this time with my baby girl and letting the world see how it is to be a mom, a wife, and a student.

Monday, March 5, 2012

SOOOOOO discouraged

Today I went and pre-registered for my fall classes. The requirement to apply for the OT program is to have completed 9 of the pre-reqs. I was so excited to register for my last of the 9 classes so that I can apply to the program in Sept. I have all of my recommendation letters, I have done my observation hours at a SNF and a pediatric center, and I have everything worked out in my mind as to what I am ready to say in the interview. I have had all of this done since Sept. of LAST YEAR, I want to add, and I had all my blood work done to show I had all of my child hood shots!!!!!!I just knew today I was going to do my happy dance because in Sept. I was going to apply to the program. When I went in to register, my advisor gave me 2 big blows to my plan. First, they have added more pre-reqs to the OT program AND I have to have ALL 14 pre-reqs completed before I can even apply. On top of that my Math classes that were pre-req classes are no longer pre-req classes, and I still have to take all of the Math classes first to get into my Science classes. =-o!!!!! I felt sooooo defeated. Now I have to get in more classes that will take me another YEAR before I can apply to the program because they only accept applicants 2x a year, in the spring and mid fall, I will not have those pre-reqs COMPLETELY finished until next SUMMER. When I apply, the application is to apply for the following year. For example, if I applied this Sept. I would not start the program until Aug. 2013. Then my advisor said that they are recommending that Pre-OT students take Psychology as my minor so that we don't have to sit out a while before starting the OT program. So hhhhhhhhh......... I have been in a bad mood since then.

As I was sitting in my sorrow and anger, a thought came to mind of this as a stumbling block. Is my goal worth staying on the path that I have planned or am I going to continue to sit in the sorrow and let it swallow me up and be grumpy in the processes, or at least until tomorrow? Then I thought, “Am I worth continuing my efforts? Am I going to let this distract me?" HELL YES I AM WORTH IT!!!!!!! I am good enough! I can achieve this! I can do this. I feel they are trying to weed out the people who are not really full hearted into getting into this career! I am not one of those weeds. I am a tiger lily and I am going to the top. I’ll take on new requirements and I'll ACE them! Bring it! Well, please don't bring more, LOL, but I'll accept this challenge. It is only making me a better person and making me want to fight for my goal even more. Tomorrow I am going to walk into class with my head held high and proud because I can do this. Even if that means I'll be in school until I am 34. ;-)